The days drag into nights that drag into days.
theres no escape..and the tunnel keeps extending.
I'm told to push through it..it wont last forever..keep going.
But when the hell will it stop.
I'm 19 and having a mid life crisis.
is this supposed to happen.
My work days dont end..serving..selling...knocking..cooking.
I cant get ahead of myself.
I leave for the summer to push through the money trials and come out on top.
only to face the hard truth that i'll be starting my 9 to 5 job right when i'm back.
I work hard everyday..for what?
I WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE.
i'm trying..i've missed one semester..and i feel completely left behind.
I'm about to miss another semester..who's fault is that.
MINE.
am i too picky?
should i settle with a college and a life i'm not completely satisfied with.
should i give up my dream to follow whats easier.
Nahh.
I'm not giving up.
My dream is to finish school for interior design in Los Angelos.
Hopefully get an "in" out there..and let my design career take off.
I want to get into commercial designing..hotels. resturaunts. theaters. malls.
but i have to be known first.
Its a difficult dream..but i'm willing to take the huge risk of putting everything on the line, to have it.
I'm very impatient. & the more i'm working and working.
i feel like i'm going no where.. and my impatient mind tells me to stop dreaming.
but then the part of my mind that i like..tells me its not just a dream, i can do it.
So here i am...
a young girl from midway utah.
wanting to make it big in design.
i'm sure you heard this dream before..
i'm sure i'm not the only one dying to be known for what i love.
But i will make it happen.
Whats your dream?
-Alex Brynn
